Ah I went through the same exact thing! Your story sounds just like mine. I'm on day 9 of being sober! I was also tired of blacking out, being embarrassed of myself, depressed, lost friends. Though I am only a little more than a week bein sober I see all the positive things coming from it. No more hangovers, regrets, days wasted! You can do it, stay strong and be positivite !