managing the romantic feelings toward alcohol
My addiction is pretty much completely mental, and I find what helps the most is rationalizing and trying to make sense of why I am so frightened by sobriety. I think about how I looked at sober people -- with pity, confusion, and disdain. I realize that was the addict in me, but still I'm nervous that people will look at ME that way now, that I will somehow be the reason they are not having fun, (and I am pretty much resigned to the notion that I will never have fun again). God, that's a pathetic way to think. I'm worried I will never meet someone romantically and develop a relationship sober. Again, I realize that is absurd. I'm 34 and have been drinking and/or doing some mind altering substance since I was 15. I also quit smoking four months ago, which I picked up around the same time. Happy to be here and appreciate your thoughts.
Brian