I never think about drinking, I never have an urge to. I do remain aware of the damage alcoholism caused in my life, and vigilant about the power of dependence and addiction. I stay connected to this site for mostly selfless reasons, to share my experience and provide guidance and encouragement. Alcoholism and everything surrounding it was a huge part of my life for a very long time, and I feel a sort of kinship and connectedness with the community here and otherwise. That's why I "stay".