There is no way an alcoholic in or
out of recovery never ever have
thoughts of alcohol. Especially when
society, advertizements, displays of
it on tv, billboards, stores, paper
are non stop visable for the human
eye to see.
With 22yrs. sobriety I would be in
denial if I said alcohol after these yrs.
didn't invade my memory.
Today, however, I use those special,
useful tools and knowledge of my alcoholism
in early recovery to ward off those dangerous
thoughts or desires to possibly ever drink
successfully like many can do.
I know for myself that I can never drink
like that and be happy, joyous and free
like I absolutely do today.
So, again today, I don't romanitize or
wish, or hope I can sit down with a nice
glass of poison and it not affect me
mentally, emotionally, physically like
a normal human being can. Because
the fact is, I couldn't yrs. ago when I
first took a sip of alcohol and I can't
today thanks to living and encorperating
a program of recovery in my everyday
affairs.