You're already making progress by sharing your experiences here and realising that you can decide whether to drink or not on an hour by hour, minute by minute basis. For example, by not taking any money with you when you walk past that wine shop. It's doing lots of little things like that which helps us in early sobriety. And as sobriety becomes more extended, the scales begin to fall from our eyes and we realise that we always do a little more to protect ourselves from drink and all the terrible consequences it brings, like the ones you listed.