The auto-pilot factor concerned me a bit to and I addressed it a lot in meetings and with a sponsor. I don't feel like this is a "whisky with the milk" kind of thing, I don't feel like it is a relapse, I prayed to my higher power/God as I understand him about this evening and I got relief about it for myself. I think I just fear the judgement. I guess I got a good fear to put on my reworked fourth step I am doing with this new sponsor.