Welcome to SR, Newem. Read around a bit, you’ll soon see most of us arrived here with much shame and regret. One day at a time is helpful early on, and at times, 15 minutes at a time. It does get much easier with time and the cravings will diminish. You may want to join the Class of May group
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ay-2013-a.html for the support and encouragement of other people who have also decided to quit this month. I joined the class thread when I quit in February and the camaraderie is amazing.