Hi Paul. I'm so glad you came back to talk about where you are with everything. Many here care about you and want to help however we can.
It sounds like you're edging closer to kicking that stuff out of your life for good. I wish I'd done that in my 20's - I waited until my 50's, and there was a trail of destruction and misery in my path. I had no one to talk it over with back then. I do think SR helps relieve our anxiety. It's much better to not suffer alone or isolate. Hoping that good things will happen for you, Paul.