Thank you all for your replies. I just got up and the hangover is brutal right now. I want to get alcohol out of my life, that's all I know at this point. How I'm going to accomplish that, I'll work on it. I'll respond later when I can get this headache and depression out of my head. Dealing with this breakup is not helping. There is nothing I want more than to contact my ex and beg for her back. But I know I just want something to cure this pain and that I'd be using her for my own selfish reasons. I just got to suffer and start taking ownership for my decisions and stop using others to "cure" me. Ughhhh... alright, well I truly do appreciate the responses and the help. I'm trying to stop thinking so black and white and understanding criticism or people making comments that I necessarily "don't like" is not the end of the world. Thanks again.