Just read back through all your helpful comments and when I read my own I cannot believe it is me! Seeing the words in front of me really helps me to see the reality of this 'problem'. Drinking has slowly dominated my life, it has crept in and taken over. Taken over all aspects of my life. I think I have been kidding myself up till now you know. Oh it's ok, you know just one drink etc etc.
I never open up and talk about things, not even to my husband, he works until pretty late most days so by the time he gets back I'm either in bed or had a few drinks. I find it hard to open up. I have always kept my feelings to myself and just suppress them with wine
this forum is prob the first time I have actually opened up and talked/ written about me and my feelings! Funny thing is I feel selfish doing it and sort of like I'm wasting all of your time lol x