Do not ever give up. You sound like you are depressed and having self-pity. You know what you need to do to stay sober and yet you still keep putting yourself in the same position. Please go back to counseling and look into a rehab facility.
I am coming up on my 4 week mark, so I am also new to sobriety. I can relate to you because I have also developed a fatty liver and messed my colon and blood counts up. When I was told that - I knew then and there I had to quit.
It has not been easy, I still suffer some boughts of depression, but I tell myself it is my fault and that if I keep eating healthy and NOT DRINKING - I will be better. I also supplement with an AA meeting at least weekly and also daily feedback on SR.
Put your health first.