Hello. What is it that you will be missing out on? For me, I was missing out on living a productive life, and accomplishing anything because of my addiction. It took me as far down as losing a very lucrative job. Almost my family. I am not sure what there is to miss with all the hell I put my family through. What is important to you? Is it your family? Have they asked you to stop using all substances? Please explain more.
( I do understand the fear. I have had it. My life is worth more than a bottle though. Adjusting takes time. It is well worth the adjustment for peace of mind, family, and stability. IMO)