Hello,
Admitting that you have a drinking problem is hard. It took my a really long time to admit to myself, and to others that i was an Alcoholic. Not saying you are, I am for sure. There is freedom in the admittance. The secret that you have been keeping is no longer a secret, and you can move into getting help for a problem that so many of us have.
AA, AVRT, SMART and other methods are programs that have been successful for people. Check them out. I use this site as my main source of interaction for my recovery. I have made friends here. We relate to one another. Please keep posting and reading. You are not alone. One day at a time is how we do it.