When drinking starts to cost you more than money (such as family, friends, work, home) maybe its time to reconsider alcohol.
I have been in your shoes many a time.
A few hours of drinking, a huge blackout, paranoia the next day, wondering what I said, what I did, who I upset.
What is quite powerful for me is that if I avoid that first drink, I can't get drunk, I can't black out, I can't upset anyone or hurt anyone I love. I also don't have to put up with the weeks of shame and guilt.
Now I look at a glass of wine with terror.
I know where it can take me.
For over 400 days, I have not had reason to feel ashamed or guilty.
Come here, post, learn and read.
Think to yourself today I am not going to drink. Then tomorrow when you wake up say it again, and the next day and the day after that.
Soon your days will start adding up and you will proud of yourself and not want to go back to where you were.
Its takes, time, it takes practice, it can be hard but its worth it xx