Hi Sam!
I'm glad that you have decided to quit. You definitely came to the right place!
I understand what you're talking about. I was able to be good for days, sometimes weeks and then I felt like I can go and have fun since I've been so good.
That always turned into binge drinking for 3 or 4 days...I already lost one job because of that..
I always told myself that I can go out and just have few drinks. That was such a lie. After two nothing can stop me...
I have now been sober for 6 days and this time I have decided to make it.
Everytime I get an urge to go drinking I come here and read posts.
It really helps!
I wish you strenght. I know it won't be easy but it will be worth it!
Good luck!