Wing, because he says something doesn't make it true. He is active in his addiction, his mind is not rational and he doesn't want it to be right now. As long as he blames you, he doesn't have to take responsibility for his own problems and actions...and words.
He is physically violent...that is NOT your fault. He is verbally abusive...that is NOT your fault.
You can sit and cry over his hurtful words, which will make them effective and the drama can continue in sadness....or you can stop taking his messages and stop listening to his hurtful words, and move on with your life in joy.
You don't NEED him to fulfill yourself. Try working on your own healing and recovery, maybe find a meeting today and support and start taking good care of you...because you are worth it.
Only you hold the key to your happiness, only you can unlock to door to a happy future and close the door on the pain of the past. You can do it, you are stronger than you think and certainly well worth the effort.
Hugs