I'm simply overwhelmed by all of the support, insight, advice and love here. I'd simply forgotten how good this place makes me feel! 8 $9"mt feel the compulsion today, thank goodness, but i'm being vigilant. I know this has to be my bottom. Heck, i thought when i wrecked my old car that that would be my bottom. Then i wrecked my new car within a week of getting it. Now the job situation. Every time i reach a bottom, i pick up a shovel and dig a little deeper. I'm hitting bedrock now. I'm not going to lose my husband over this. He's getting exhausted and i won't put him through anymore. Thanks again for all the love and support. It keeps me motivated. This place is so special. I can't believe i ever left.