Please tell me that this gets easier as I go along...
1st: it gets easier!
but i'll be honest: it got tougher, too. having no "escape-hatch" and not knowing what/how to deal with the day-to-day frustrations....and the letting go of stuff i really can't do anything about...
these are skills we can learn, 1st.
i'm a pretty bright person, but i had to learn, for example, something as simple-sounding as paying attention to when i was actually thirsty. physically thirsty on a hot day. sounds ridiculous, no?
had to learn not to go for the quick fix
which can mean that lots of "unfixed" stuff comes to your attention and then SITS there.
it gets easier, 1st.
you can do this.
just keep going.