Help me.
I have just decided to get clean from booze as I am spiralling out of control. I've missed close to a month at work already this year from depression and booze and have spent the last two days off work again getting drunk.
This morning, after serious thought, I admitted finally to myself that I am an alcoholic.
I've been to AA before and it does help, but I thought i could control my drinking after abstaining for 2 months. This just isnt the case.
I'm scared I'm going to loose my job. I hate the fact that I prob smell of drink and I look awful. I have been lying to everyone to hide the facts and I no longer want to do this. I avoid food too when I drink as i get a bigger hit and right now I'm shaking like a leaf, feel constantly sick and ill and am really embarrassed I'm even typing this, but I need help and just a few words of guidance right now.
I'm now dreading the DT's and the endless nights of bed sweats and sickness.
