You want everyone to have sympathy for you? No one is going to have sympathy until you start actively working towards recovery and even then, no one owes you anything. You need to get out of that mindset before it cripples you. You can't sit around wallowing in pitty wondering why no one understands what you are going through, instead you need to get up and do something about it.
I hope you reconsider doing this on your own. Your family might be able to offer you love but they cannot support you in the way you need when you are just starting to be sober. This isn't something you can all hug and make it through.