I wanted so much for my family to stand
strong beside me as I took steps to stay
sober each day. I wanted them to truly
understand me as an alcoholic with no
questions asked.
Yes, they supported my recovery, but,
because none of them had problems
with alcohol or drugs, they didn't see
the need to babysit me. They all had
their own agendas in life and continued
to live life to the fullest without hesitation.
As much as I tried to explain all that I
was feeling, my ups and downs, my ever
changing moods, changes in life, I eventually
got tired of explaining and making them
understand me and my recovery.
I eventually, got sick and tired of not
accepting them just the way they were
and are and just let them be.
I realized that this is my recovery, my life
and it is up to me to be responsible for my
own program of recovery and not worry
about anyone else. My recovery belongs
to me and I shouldn't have placed expectations
on my own family or friends to help me.
The support I really needed and found was
amongst others in recovery just like I. Members
who definitely understood me and knew exactly
where I was coming from.
What a blessing and gift to have in the fellowship
within the rooms of recovery.