Jstanthrgrl, Day 20? You are
FANTASTIC. Congratulations. I know this is the last thing you want to hear but, all the agony will dimish with time. At 1020 days the weapon that works the best is playing the tape all the way through, remembering just how awful things had gotten. Ironically cocaine was the most financially and time devasting drug I used, but the cravings to smoke a cigarette are the most powerful even after 11 months. It's probably hard to see it right now, but you get stronger every day you don't use. Rootin for ya.
