Just cheering you on Roosta. My long history of sobriety has been punctuated with lots of relapse. Just like a plant, sobriety will die if not taken care of.
I am back again and owning every bit of my recovery: going to a lot of AA meetings, working with a sponsor, and handing in those awful court slips at EVERY meeting. I am no longer ashamed of what happens when I drink, but I do feel VERY responsible for the pain I have caused others. Right now I feel very humble and grateful to be back in the safe zone of sobriety.