Jstanthrgrl, it's obvious you know the difference between right and wrong. 1018 days sober, one of the things I've noticed about myself is that guilt and shame have practically vanished. Why? Because I don't do the guilty, shameful things I did when I was drunk, and that was practically all the time. Sobriety is really and improvement in my life, I cannot deny that I am better off than before. Rootin for ya.