Thanks Oak for the words of encouragement and it is comforting to know that others have the same issues and used alcohol for the same reasons. I intend to keep posting.
Tellnotales. Thank you for the positive post also.
You're right there is no point in mulling over my relapse. I went out for a cycle and am feeling more positive now. I guess we are both starting fresh again so let's pledge to stay sober and embrace life and all it has to offer.