Originally Posted by Carlotta

Just wanted to give you a Saturday morning hug.
Friendly suggestion: line up a plan of recovery for when you come out. Maybe subscribe to the Loner newsletter, join "In the rooms" and also you might consider ordering Rational Recovery. I use AVRT along with AA and it is a great set of tool. I got my copy on ebay for a few bucks from the Goodwill you might want to get one as that system caters to people who don't do meetings for one reason or another.
My advice would be not to make it super duper complicated but have a few sets of tools ready and waiting when you come out.
I read somewhere that people who go to a meeting right after being released from rehab/detox are far less likely to relapse so try to hit a video meeting when you get home.
Hang in there girl, maybe you cannot do it but WE can do it.