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Old 04-28-2013, 12:40 AM
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noexcuse
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Unhappy So much pain

I think I need rehab. One part of me says I'd the easy way out, and so does the other part.... I want to bail. But I also don't think I 'm going to beat this on my own. Not just the alcohol... The screwed up thinking, the self-mutilation, the resentment. I want someone to lock me down, tie me up, an save me from myself. A month of reprieve sounds like heaven. In the meantime, I'm terrified, extremely lonely, nd so,so, sad. I have a five year ld and ag four yer old. They should give me insurmoutable happiness, and all I fl is insurmoutable exhaustion.

I don't think I can o this until I gEt away from everythimg ele. I feel like I'm going to die.
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