Alcoholism is an elevator going down. You can choose to get off whenever you want... I chose to get off before many of the "yets" had happened (I haven't lost a job yet... I haven't gotten a DUI yet... I haven't drank in the morning yet). One saying that I really like goes, "if you're an alcoholic, you shouldn't drink; if you weren't an alcoholic you won't need to." I was a binge drinker but I decided to let it go before it got much worse. My life is 100% better now and even though I get cravings, I see drinking for what it is; a mask for my emotions, a way to feel "excitement" (regardless of the fact that nothing exciting or good EVER happened when i went out to a bar or club and got drunk!), and an escape. It wasn't positive for me, doesn't sound positive for you!