Welcome to the family crispy.
I know it's a brave step - reaching out like this - but you won't regret it. There are some wonderful people here who want to help. I drank all my life and never thought I'd live without it. I found the courage to change by coming here and telling my story and listening to the suggestions. It was truly life changing to be able to come here for help. I hope you'll feel the same. You can do this, crispy.