Sometimes we can fall back into our old ways of doing things. Do you think that you might need face to face support from others who are achieving sobriety? There are many different methods that people use. SMART, AVRT, AA, SR....and more. Posting on here is a great step. Are there any friends or family members that you can open up to. Having a support system is invaluable when it comes to sobriety. IMO
It is good to see that you have posted again and that you are getting back on that horse and riding. We are here for you.