MLC - I see you've been logging on and presumably reading threads throughout the day. There is absolutely no shame in coming back and joining in the conversation. You are always welcome, regardless of what you or anyone else here has said in the past. You said your husband is home now until you check in to Detox, so now you can focus 100% on getting ready for that, and what will come afterwards. Even if you choose to never post again, we still wish you well and if you are reading this good luck to you and your family.