Hi 1st,
RELAPSE..... well I chose to drink 6 weeks ago after being sober for 5 weeks. Here is how it went:
1st glass of wine- felt pretty good.
Half bottle down- starting to worry that I wouldn't have enough wine. Felt a bit on edge.
Last few glasses- Well I remember very little however I do remember calling my family and crying a lot. Quite miserable.
None the less the point is... I took that to mean that apparantly I am not having a great time drinking. My beast loves to drink. In fact it was all over me about how fun it would be to have had some last night.
Keeping that "wine night" in my memory has helped me immensly. My advice is learn the best you can from it and dont drink again NO MATTER WHAT. Take it for what its worth though. I am a newbie too. jkb