MLC you receive at least 2 dozen replies for every one of your posts. Several struggling newcomers and insightful veterans posting questions don't get a fraction of the attention and support that you do here. Lashing out at SR, which is probably your last lifeline of support and sympathy at this point, just shows how sick you really are. And the reality is that many of us have been that sick ourselves.
I'm happy to hear you are going to treatment. Good luck.