So, I had to go to a work party last night. LOTS of drinking... by the time I left I was so irritated that I didn't get to drink "just one or two". I mean I know I cant have "just one or two" but, IT SUCKED!!!!!
My beast has been mostly quiet for 6 weeks now and even last night I did not actually think of having a drink I only thought of how unfair it was that I "could not drink like normal people". Not to mention that NO ONE knows I have quit drinking so it was constant "come on... shots" or "whats wrong with you that youre not drinking". I wanted to scream..."It is none of your f***ing buisness now leave me alone to be absolutely miserable and hate my stupid sober life".
And that was my first experience attending a party while sober.
Maybe I should crawl in a closet and never go out again.