I honestly couldn't tell if you were serious or if you were messing around. Still don't know. On the chance you are being serious, I'll say, consider going here:
Friends and Family of Alcoholics - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Great people with brutally honest advice. If you are messing around, just realize there are a lot of people here in pain trying to reach out for help. Please respect that.