I have just had this awful ed monkey
I can understand, having been both anorexic and bullimic. Maybe I'm not supposed to talk about it in this forum (not sure) so I'll just say it quick that it was a very simple comment another person who was recovered ed said to me. That what she did was decided that if she binged then she would just live with the consequences. It wasn't long before she stopped because the consequences were not THAT bad. It's almost impossible to eat enough in one day to really gain a lb and if you keep down what you eat, then you just don't feel the need to binge again. Thats just a very simplified explanation and it's not an instant "cure" and maybe some people need more intense therapy for it but it worked for me.
The main thing right now is you just do your best to keep yourself together until you get to that detox and then you can work on the rest of it, one thing at a time one minute at a time if you have to.