I will stop posting. I wish I was perfect like the rest. Once I get clean I have to deal with this eating disorder which will kill me faster than any drug. Is everyone angry at me for that too?? I have struggled and tried for 16 years to get rid of it and I just can't. Now I can't stop crying. I'm so scared and without my kids I would be dead. They have all that I have to give them at the moment.