You summed up so eloquently what so many of us feel about our addictions and drugs of choice. I could relate! That is how I feel when I see a bottle of pills or hear someone talk about throwing away the remainder of a pain pill prescription. How could you throw it away?! Are you mad?! Or the even stronger thought--how could you WASTE it and throw it away and not give it to ME?! I am sitting here suffering, can't you see that?! GIVE ME those pills! Aarggh!
And I have a preternatural sense for sensing pills and pill bottles. I once spotted an empty (rats!) bottle on the side of the road while driving by--at night! Yes, I stopped and checked it out.
We can't change our DNA, only our response to it. Thank the stars we have each other!