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Old 04-25-2013, 10:05 AM
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Dib42
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Struggling a bit today...

I've had a nice run of good days. Days where I don't think about drinking or not drinking. For the first time in about a week, i'm feeling the urge to drink. I'm not going to, I'm not going to give in, I'm not even really worried about that.

I'm just tired of fighting the cravings. I figured going nearly a week with no real cravings or anything I'd be rested up and ready to fight off another one. And I guess I am a bit, cause I'm not even worried about giving in to it, i'm just not going to.

But I feel a little down and depressed that I'm sitting here wanting to drink.

I just don't want to "want to drink" anymore. Everything I am mentally aware of doesn't want to drink. But that damned little voice in there somewhere is pestering me.

I'm going to go chain smoke some cigarettes, I'm sick of smoking too, when I feel a little more comfortable with my new sober life, i'm going to try to kick those too.

Thanks for reading,
it means a lot to me...

I'm off to wage the battle...
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