Yeah, I don't taunt, engage or try and understand my AV. I got really stuck on something a couple/few weeks ago. Oddly, I didn't want to drink but IT started making some compelling arguments and questions. IT totally took me by surprise (sneak attack) and I was in a very bad place in my head. It took two other members here to help me beat the POS back down.
Scared the beejeezus out of me but it absolutely helped me come to a greater understanding of NEVER.