Harvey, I have come to understand that I am now much more active and as a result, less lonely now that I quit drinking. I was very anxious then too, and I was afraid of any number of things that might happen and my ability to cope with them, and also full of regrets and anger over things that had already passed into history.
I have given the history aspect an Oh Well and closed it. My future now is being faced with my full complement of ability and skill, whatever that may be. I can't expect more than that from this universe, and as it is turning out, what I am receiving now is just fine. I have lots to work on, but that's what life is for.