Update
So, I didn't make it through last night... After all you suppport yesterday, I brought that drink after work, cried after I drink it... So it didn't lead to another and another, I called someone and told them about my issue and they came and sat with me for most of the night... I so want to change, TODAY will be day one.... I already have someone ready to hang out with me right after work today, so there won't be a repeat of yesterday.... Thanks for all your guys support yesterday, even though I caved you are guys are the reason I called someone for help.. Feel like I let you done, and know I let myself down.. Trying to think of today as a new day and a new start on life... Thanks again... I will be on here a lot, you are amazing..