Keep this post. Print it out and keep it around to look at.
Thank God I didn't wind up dead with some of the insane things I did. Crashing cars and stuff - and still I didn't stop.
Count this as a huge warning.
I'll just suggest getting help - whatever that might mean. I'm in therapy for addiction and I've gone to AA.
Do whatever it takes. That's my motto.
Like sober1ck says - fear only lasts so long.