Originally Posted by
chickonlake 
this is my first time posting anything,but today i read so many posts an i am you, i am all of you.i have experience every feeling that each of you have described.finally someone and so many of you that understand. 
Neat how that works out, huh? It's comforting to learn that you're not alone in this, there are many people just like you, going through the same thing, and there are many who've come out the other side, and many who haven't.
Learn from those that have, learn from those that havent.
You definately need someone healthy and sober in your life. In the meantime, cruise these forums, talk to the folks here, make posts and read posts.
As far as your concerns about meeting friends and moving on etc etc... First you need to focus on getting a safe distance away from
Mr.HittyMcDrunkenCheaty. Do you have a women's resource center anywhere close? They may be a great source of support for you, and they'll go nutz to protect you from a drunk, it's not just a hobby, its their job.