If you just put the God idea to the side.
Are you willing to do anything necessary to get and stay sober? I find it strange that you are living in a virtual hell after 3 detoxes but you still want to pick and choose. I finally got to a point I would believe anything if I thought it might keep me sober. Thats just me.
I have a few issues with AA myself but I do not believe I would have made it so far without. AA filled a lot of my time those first couple months, kept me around sober examples, and filled my life with many tools I can use in sobriety.
Now I am so busy living life I do not attend AA much. I still get to a meeting or 2 a week. I mostly log in here and read, and use some ideas from Rational Recovery/AVRT.
Anyway it works for me. AA is my foundation.
Hope you find your way