To finish off the story, since then I have not gone to AA except a handful of times, I had some bad experiences with specific AA meetings that I should have just brushed off with other meetings, and I have been on a 4 months sober/two months drunk relapse cycle for, what, 6 years now?
SR helped a lot when I first found it, and as long as I came here I didn't drink. That was a pretty good sober stint in 2009. But I started to forget again....
In all that time nothing major changed. Not this time. I have HAD IT. AA every day (or close to it). SR every day. Sponsor and Steps. Outpatient counseling. Therapist. Whatever it takes. And I am NOT going to stop. This is the END of alcohol for me.