Hi snohomishaa.
I'm glad you found your way to Secular Connections. I certainly understand how you feel about your experience.
I used Rational Recovery/AVRT to obtain permanent abstinence. There are several threads here that discuss AVRT. You can also google Rational Recovery AVRT and take their crash course which only takes about 15 minutes or less.
I am NOT powerless and I am NOT doing this one day at a time. I made a permanent decision to never drink again and never change my mind.
If I had known something like this existed when I first got "sober" I would never have gotten involved in a program that goes completely against my grain.
Rational Recovery is achieving permanent abstinence from drinking/using, PERIOD. It makes no other claims.