no longer a darkplace
Hi and welcome yo SR. I am. not alcoholic but an addict , same thing. Admitting you have a problem is HUGE. Coming here and posting is big too. Stay here, explore, read, seeing others like us is helpful. If you tell your friends and they are not understanding then they are not friends worth having. To change you may have to change a lot of things , friends included. I abused cocaine then regretted, isolated, became depressed. Then three or four days later felt better , gained confidence in being able to control my use, used again, again and again. I can't. For me the only choice is total abstinence. I can no longer use and that thought is terrifying. I am on day 8 and am just beginning. I have a long way go but I'll get there. Hope this helps, but whatever you do , keep coming back. SR is my rock.