Hey there,
Welcome! I can relate to ur post. For me I had to find things to replace that high... You get it from drinking, I got it from meth. For me learning to stay busy, and excited about soemthing new, as well as dealing with pain was key. You can do this! Someone earlier posted about being able to laugh again. In my early recover that was key for me. Finding those real laughs again............... U got this, U can do it!