Husky,
yes, i get it about wanting personal contact.and i know there's no LR meeting in your parts of the States.
the LR forum was a great place for me, as it's much quieter than here. and many many conversations that carry on for years. i got to "know" people as much as is possible in cyberspace, i think.
well enough to meet a couple in person after a few years, which was pretty cool.
yeah, i didn't grow up in "that age", either; at 57 i'm considerably older than you.
overwhelming sadness seems like an appropriate response to the crappy stuff going on all around.
seems like the trouble is in your immediate(?) connect to drinking when thoser feelings are present.
best wishes on the therapist visit.